You need the negatives to develop

The one thing I promised myself that I would do this year is find a rental photography studio space. So far, I've checked a couple places out and I absolutely fell in love with one of them. I tried every which way to make it work, but I had this overwhelming sense of uncertainty that I was setting myself up for failure. The main reason is time. It's almost March and if I think back to last March, I was working (my regular job) probably 60 hours a week, trying to be a decent mother, shooting on the weekends, and then sleeping somewhere in between. So, instead of investing $400+ a month into a studio space that I may not even have enough time to use to make a profit, I decided to take the easy way out and put everything on the back burner. The fear of risk and it not working out over-powered and I again failed to pull the trigger. 

So, now what? In the photography business I've noticed there are two big areas of focus (pun intended) newborns and weddings. I wanted the studio to learn newborn photography. Not just the brand new mom holding the baby shots, but like the beautiful, creamy photos of baby wrapped in the cheesecloth's and sleeping the day away....ahhhhh....maybe a hint of baby fever in there too, but either way NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. With that said, I've decided to focus on weddings. I've shot a number of them before and I really enjoy it, but I never thought of taking it to the next level. I want to specialize in it and make it like what I do. I need a lot things to fall into place to get there but, I'm confident. Coming to the conclusion that it just wasn't the right time for me to have the studio right now was tough, but I'm not really one to give up, either. I've wanted to be a photographer since as far back as I can remember, well, a photojournalist to be exact. I didn't think I was good enough, so I didn't pursue it or go to school to learn it. I've spent a lot of time over the past few years trying to learn it on my own, and I think I've come a long way. I'm not the best, but I am very happy with my progress. 

Until we meet again.